I’ve been feeling great lately – free and ready to take charge of my life. Its not that I haven’t felt this way before, its just that its been really easy for me to lose myself in the daily hustle and bustle; and once that happens, I feel ungrounded. I am still trying to actively work toward prioritizing myself over other things. Truly, I’ve realized that if I am not at my best, than all the things I have been prioritizing over myself won’t see fruition. It might seem like common knowledge, but its taken me a while to really step into this power.
I have realized that I am my core foundation, and on that I have the opportunity to build so many more beautiful things.
This is why I always look forward to the full and new moons each month. These lunar events offer me an opportunity to start anew and have fresh conversations with myself about what I want, what my goals are and how I see myself in the past and present. Its a time where I put to the test all the learnings from life lessons and in that find my power. This full moon in Aquarius on August 3rd will usher in great change and progress when it comes to self-love and the way we see ourselves. It will also help aid in detachment and push us to let go of the people, places and things that no longer serve our highest good or potential.
In my Success Planner is a short blurb by Jessie Arora of Atma Things that describes the power of this full moon in a nutshell.
I’m looking forward to the full moon in Aquarius tomorrow as its an opportunity to fearlessly love ourselves. Self-love is one of the hardest things we can do. It involves reliving childhood wounds, those that have defined us as adults, become our comfort zones, shielded us from fear, and protected us from the unknown.
Part of my journey has been setting boundaries for myself with myself and with others; understanding my expectations of people and situations, knowing my limitations and where my actions, thoughts and language stem from. Its no surprise that all of this stems from traumatic childhood experiences that manifested as self-image issues, lack of self-worth, insecurities and toxic habits/relationships. We can all relate. No matter how charmed or difficult one’s life may seem, there are always issues from our childhood that creep up and these moments can become our greatest life lessons. Only if we’re willing to acknowledge and listen to them and grow from them.
What are the roots to some of my childhood wounds?
Growing up surrounded by my parents unloving marriage was the first. They were victims of a very conservative South Asian culture and made to feel that marriage was the answer. Growing up gay and feeling like an outsider didn’t help. I felt forced to live a straight and emotionless life to satisfy the status quo, coping through unhealthy eating habits and obesity. I also survived experiences with physical, mental, emotional & sexual abuse.
I don’t list all this to entice pity for myself, I list this to highlight the complex layers to my experience and the tall walls I built preventing me from living a fulfilling life and a total blockage in my capacity to acknowledge, accept and love my own existence. I’ve worked through so much of this these past few months and I am on the path now to continue this work too. After all, healing is a process that never ends.
So this full moon in Aquarius is important not only because I am an Aquarian, but because it marks a pinnacle in my journey of self-love and healing. It marks a true start to an on-going journey to self-love, self-respect & self-acceptance that I hope never pauses. Through this journey I have not only learned to celebrate myself, but love and understand the not so great experiences, the regrets, the mistakes and the unfortunate incidents that have ultimately led me to who I am today. I am proud of it.
My Moon resource has always been Yasmin Boland’s Moonology which lists the tips and tricks to help you manifest your greatest potential during the lunar cycles.
In her words, below are the Top 5 Questions you should be asking yourself and reflecting on to make the most of this full moon in Aquarius. Remember, its about being honest with yourself, and being patient with yourself too.
It’s also important to understand that taking action and showing up for yourself doesn’t mean you have to be fully healed and perfect, it just means that you’re willing to acknowledge your responsibility and actions in your journey. Its understanding that all of your experiences, the emotions you feel and the people you encounter are all a deep reflection of yourself.
Reflect on the following 5 questions and let the full moon guide you…
- Have I been pragmatic to the point of losing the romance of my life?
- Have I been living too much in my head and not enough in my heart?
- Have I been trying to do things my way, just for the sake of it?
- Have I been trying too hard to befriend people, and for the wrong reasons?
- Have I allowed myself to move forwards this month